Divinely restored, guided and heard.

Walking this evening in the beautiful Sintra after a day at a Quinta with my little family, swimming, walking, eating, surrounded by huge old trees and wild mint in the grass, (giving the most deliciously sweet smell when warmed by the sun), animals all around I was feeling peaceful and a little bit keen to get home. I'm surviving on ultra minimal sleep right now, somehow getting through... nature most definitely restores me but by the end of the day I'm more than ready to drop into bed with my boys. Last night was more or less sleepless too since a huge mosquito decided to join the gang and I was on my mission to persuade the guest out of the room for most of the night and early morning... 

Anyhow, on this particular Rua in Sintra there are many stalls selling lovely handmade things. I always stop to look. So inspiring these people making things and selling their art themselves... dream catchers, paintings of Portugal, clothes and jewellery. I look but never buy! Today Miguels mother saw me looking and offered to buy. She loves to offer to buy things for us all. She is a generous soul and I have always said no. "Fiona, what would you like? I want to buy something for you" I went in to my usual reply " No, no... thank you, so kind of you but I don't need anything, you do so much for us... really no... so kind but I don't want anything", I usually have to say this minimum three times before she looks disappointed and stops or Miguel has to intervene and stop the exchange himself. Today after my first reply I found myself picking up pace and being delivered to a stall of really beautiful looking handmade jewellery with stones of all different colours... I looked over the stall once and was instantly drawn to a bracelet which I quickly put on and a necklace which I put around my neck soon after. Wow, I was in love. I accepted both and left feeling like these things were made for me and Miguels Mum was so happy too, so happy to have been able to express her love this way... made a lovely end to the day for all of us. It feels good to allow the flow to switch, it feels good to change the autopilot response too.

When getting home I researched the stones that the maker of the jewellery had told me she used... all blues and turquoises in colour. I was warmed to read that all were responsible for opening the heart and throat, bringing prosperity and cleansing negative energies attached to the person. I was then so happy to see this! Over the last days I have been directing my prayers to the divine mother. I have asked her for a gentle hand opening my heart and to bring power and authenticity to my self expression. I have been inspired to direct my prayer to her since meeting a powerful being called Sondra Ray. I was lucky enough to have a 'liberation breathing' session with her and her husband recently and experienced something more deep than any other healing or therapy or book or medicine or anything I've had ever before! (and I've done a few!!!) Serious stuff!!! I have been reading her book and I've been moved by the experiences that she shares... every time I read the book before bed, my dreams are so lucid! Somehow I feel that just connecting with her through her writing in some way activates parts of me... i don't know... it's powerful reading for me anyway. I will add the link to the book here too. 

I also then remembered that we picked up some Hawthorn from a bush in the Quinta today too. I didn't think Hawthorn grew here in Portugal! Hawthorn is a powerful heart tonic and as well as physically healing the heart, is also though to energetically nurture her too. I feel the hand guiding me now. Feeling her hand guiding me right this minute.... to the kitchen to brew some heart opening tea from these branches and leaves she provided!!! 

This all reminds me that with prayer, it's so damn important to remember what you pray for! Often we forget... Its so amazing when you see them unfolding, when you feel that connection. I expect miracles! I expect magic and I love drinking tea in my amazing new jewellery. Big up to the divine mother for hearing me, sending me to nature to absorb the greenness and bringing me everything I need to answer my prayers.

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