One thing I love the most is reading a book for the second time and finding it makes a complete different sense to me after the time has passed since last reading it. And then the third and fourth times, also showing me something completely new. The words were there before, but what I feel each time is a reflection of the path I am and have been walking. Sometimes I will open a book on a page, wherever I am drawn to.... I know this always brings me guidance (some books are better than others for this mind you!) and just a while ago I opened one book which gave me guidance leading to a huge inner shift and following an almost instant outer shift in my life.
I had been finding myself feeling like something was missing, I was doing many of the things I always wanted to do, but every time walked away feeling like there had to be more... something more, something which felt more fulfilling to me. This was also reflecting in my relationship. I was projecting many of my feelings about myself and my path onto my partner, being a bit bi-polar... one minute in love with me and him and the next feeling dead inside to both. It was at a time when I was about to leave him (again) that I decided to open the book to really get a hold on the situation, I wasn't fully trusting myself, and in reflection, rightly so as it turned out I was basing my truth on temporary feelings which probably came from beliefs given to me by someone else.
The chapter I read spoke to me about longing, about wanting for something that I didn't have, about the creative power of the thoughts I was thinking which were delivering me the emptiness and longing for more which I was experiencing in all that I did. It was a big bash round the head from that book! Interesting, because I 'knew' these things... I spoke about these things to others but at those times when we are really in the experience of the ideas, when we are cracked open by living, we have the opportunity to feel it all for ourselves and move through patterns if we wish.
After reading this and recognizing this 'Want' mentality within myself I created a meditation and affirmation for 2 wants I had already noticed. Maybe you guess the end of this particular story because it is that obvious! It really worked for me and shifted instantly my feelings about different projects I had and brought me much more connection with many people around me, even bringing more people into my life who I connected with on many different levels... Excited me to know more places where I was holding myself back by wanting for something.
Here is the meditation I used for you to do for yourself (If you want!);
First, think of something you repetitively find yourself wanting for. Not the basic stuff like a piece of cake or a new iphone; something deeper that you find yourself feeling is missing from your life. Some examples; 'I want to be happy', 'I want work which fulfills me', 'I want harmony in my relationship', 'I want more friends', 'I want more money', 'I want to be successful', 'I want to be healthier', 'I want to be more confident', 'I want to find peace'. By wanting any of these or whatever else you may think of for yourself, you are ordering that the universe deliver you more of that WANTING! Not actually deliver you the object of your longing.
After identifying your biggest and most pressing want, change it in words. For example; I changed, 'I want to be happy' to 'I am happy' and 'I want to be fulfilled' to 'everything I do leads me to greater and greater fulfillment'. I read somewhere that any affirmation like this has to be at least 50‰ believable to you. So if you can't believe an 'I am....' statement then try a 'everything I do brings me closer to.....'
Then, once in a space of meditation... after relaxing your body, watching your breath, sinking inwards. Visualise, imagine, bring into mind your higher self. Noticing how your higher self looks, the expression, the posture, notice everything you can about that highest version of yourself. Watch as you now allow your higher self to state the affirmations you previously wrote. With confident command, as many times as feels right, until it begins to feel really good to you. Continuing to notice everything you can about the way your higher self is behaving, looking and being. Then visualize, imagine, sense that higher self merging with your energy now. Notice how that feels in your body. Know that whenever you use the affirmation following this you can begin to create a pathway to your higher energy.
Slowly coming back to where you are. Notice how you are feeling after that. Notice noticing.
Often the meditation won't even be necessary, Just recognizing the wants can be enough to shift certain things, without any further action it seems!
